Zulu Six Blog

I cant stand when people lie to me. especially people who I really care for, its quiteheartbreaking. When you love someone very much, why do you need to lie in the relationship.

I spent 4th of July in Santa Barbara, California, it was a good experience but I left early and missed the fireworks. But I was at the pass and review stand with VIPs that was very cool.

How do I stop being so angry and hateful? I feel it in my heart and I have not seen the theraphist yet. I need see on this week. My teeth is in pain..my head aches and muscles in my head hurt..my heart beating faster than normal...something wrong with me...

I was at Clays funeral in Houston. The father made a very memorable speech, Im glad Paul and the IAVA crew was there. Great seeing them again, but it was emotional time for me especially coming back home and hearing what happen to Clay. What a waste of an exceptional life.

I can't believe when I heard Clay Hunt committed suicide today its been affecting me all day. This is the same person we did the IAVA commercial, the world just lost a Marine, humanitarian and great human being. another mititary person suicide statistic. but i know this person. He's not a statistic. He was my friend, I wouldn't trade the moments of time of spent with him. I will not forget him. I still have his pictures.

Lots of explosion tonight..can't wait to leave here. I am almost packed my gear, now I have to clean it. Having a sense of nervousness of leaving, a whole year of deployment of what I have gone through I feel empty inside. Emptiness as of a sense finality of my career, the fear that this is the only thing in this world Im only capable of doing. I don't fear my past, nor the future..its silly to fear something that hasn't happen or past that is already gone. Ive felt the lack of connection with my daughter. I miss her so much. Think of her daily, ive fear she will not know me or the new boyfriend is her father.

Well Im back in FOB Salerno, very for the fact that I will be leaving soon. We will have less then 20 days left. The difference in weather is remarkable. The temperature in Bagram compared to my region is like night and day. It has to be the altitude.

Well Bagram sucks during the winter time. I was staying in the tents and the power went out. Good thing I brought my cold weather gear with me. The only good place of Bagram is the Bazaar, quality stuff because its close to Kabul. But I do like seeing the mountains that surround the base. I'm back to FOB Salerno its warmer here than there. The soldiers are whining about me about being to harsh to them.