Leaving on jet plane..my favorite song.

Lots of explosion tonight..can't wait to leave here. I am almost packed my gear, now I have to clean it. Having a sense of nervousness of leaving, a whole year of deployment of what I have gone through I feel empty inside. Emptiness as of a sense finality of my career, the fear that this is the only thing in this world Im only capable of doing. I don't fear my past, nor the future..its silly to fear something that hasn't happen or past that is already gone.

Ive felt the lack of connection with my daughter. I miss her so much. Think of her daily, ive fear she will not know me or the new boyfriend is her father.

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